Even More Thoughts

So my mentees have all returned from wherever they may have been. They are all so lucky! They run around the United States and Asia like it's nothing. Haha. Some mentees even bought me presents, I was so grateful and giddily happy! (Of course, it is necessary to note that I am not in mentoring for the presents that I could potentially receive).

I used to be such an avid blogger. I wonder what happened... Perhaps the things that are most worthy of my attention and concern are inappropriate for posting onto the Internet. Issues that dominate my time, energy, and efforts are unfortunately things that cannot be solved easily. My focus should be on school, campus organizations, and work. But, as we all know, what "should be" generally isn't.

The targets for a summer internship are Goldman Sachs, CitiGroup, JP Morgan Chase, Smith Barney, Bear Stearn's, Credit Suisse, etc. However, I may not put in the effort to apply to more than three. I wasn't qualified enough for Goldman Sachs last summer, hopefully I'm a stronger applicant this semester. Which also means that an extensive summer trip to Asia would be out of the question. (Perhaps a very brief trip...?). That's not too important, I guess. Asia will still be around.

Things will change drastically in 2008. I just hope that I will be ready for them.

TIME Magazine

^ This week's issue ^


I encourage everyone to read it carefully, though; watch for biases.


"Believe none of what you hear and only half of what you read."

Over the course of this break, I have had some time to reflect upon what types of things that I think that I am looking for. First and foremost, I would like to admit that I am a person who’s quite difficult to understand. In many cases, I can’t understand myself, either. HAHA. Alright, so perhaps that’s not very funny considering that I just admitted to being unable to understand myself.

Okay, here’s what I am thinking about: from careful analysis of all prior relationships, I seem to have this personality that’s difficult to get close to. I’ve built “walls” that prevent anyone from entering easily. To make it worse, I am not a very trusting person. So, when a person tries to get close to me too quickly, I just tell her that we need to 分手. Then, the vicious cycle begins again. My inability to communicate to even myself precisely what I am looking for kills my interest off every single time.

Odd, right? Totally!

“Marcus is weird and impossible, so don’t even bother.” *苦笑*

Cold

The cold weather seems to have become more bitter as all of my mentees have left New York City.

I miss them. =/.

Grades, et al.

This semester's report card came out...

CHI 1010 Core Elementary Chinese I: A
ENG 4991 Seminar in British Literature: A
IB 3341 Principles of International Business: A
MGT 4310 Entrepreneurship: A-
MKT 3301 Principles of Marketing: A
THE 3305 Moral Theology of the Marketplace: A

I was so close. A semester 4.0 is ever elusive for me. That A- really devasated all hopes of having a semester 4.0 this time around. Although I do thank the people who inspired me so much: my mentees. They come from a place where the language, culture, climate, etc., are totally different and they are able to outperform so many other students academically. I am born here in the United States and I have no excuse but to do well in school. I must continue to work hard.

Next semester's courses are going to be so much more difficult. God help me.

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The following is going to be exceptionally sporadic thoughts that may not make any sense...

So anyway, this trip to Vancouver has brought my attention to so many things. What does one value and what should one value? She said that I was an avoider. She said that the seven organizations, part time job, and other work that I place onto my shoulders, (even though it may be wonderful) is another way for me to avoid seeing the obvious issues that are all around. She's probably right, but how could one possibly do anything about somethings that one has no power over? That question simply cannot be answered and what I am doing now is the only way cause in the short term, there is no other way.

["She" will remain anonymous].