Pursuits...

I need to clear something up: I have not officially graduated from university yet, I have 12 credits left, thanks everyone for the congratulations but...yeah.

It is said that those who have not tasted the bitterness of defeat will never be truly able to appreciate the sweet taste of victory. After my retiring from student organizations, I have since begun to pursue other things. It's quite obvious now that nothing is as ideal as one hopes for it to be. My greatest fear now is mediocrity. I dread the day that people will look at me as only some washed up former student leader who leads the life of someone average-someone who hasn't really contributed to the society that he lives in, someone who really can't make much of a difference, etc. I'm quite scared of that.

In essence, I am running away from that. I really do want to make a difference in society or at least in some small way within the community. My greatest fear is failure. "What if I get rejected from everything that I am pursuing?" is the question that constantly crosses my mind.
This lonely uphill battle will be reality for me in the foreseeable future. I sure hope that the past four years have meant something to someone so that I may be able to get that job or get into that school...

...only time will tell...