Over the course of this break, I have had some time to reflect upon what types of things that I think that I am looking for. First and foremost, I would like to admit that I am a person who’s quite difficult to understand. In many cases, I can’t understand myself, either. HAHA. Alright, so perhaps that’s not very funny considering that I just admitted to being unable to understand myself.

Okay, here’s what I am thinking about: from careful analysis of all prior relationships, I seem to have this personality that’s difficult to get close to. I’ve built “walls” that prevent anyone from entering easily. To make it worse, I am not a very trusting person. So, when a person tries to get close to me too quickly, I just tell her that we need to 分手. Then, the vicious cycle begins again. My inability to communicate to even myself precisely what I am looking for kills my interest off every single time.

Odd, right? Totally!

“Marcus is weird and impossible, so don’t even bother.” *苦笑*